One Woman’s Journey Into the Afterlife: In Her Own Words

Note from Debra: This is a guest post I wrote for Anna Sayce Website
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One Woman’s Journey Into the Afterlife: In Her Own Words

In my work as a professional intuitive, a few weeks ago I was asked to contact a woman, Rose, who’d died only three weeks prior. Rose’s daughter (let’s call her “Sonia”) was concerned about her. I am not asked to contact deceased loved ones often but I agreed to try to contact Rose or to meet Sonia’s Spirit Guides and receive any messages. I could feel Sonia’s concern and grief.

Rose had suffered Alzheimer’s for 12 years before she died and had spent the final two years being unable to communicate with her family. This was heartbreaking considering what a spiritual, vivacious, social powerhouse Rose had been prior to Alzheimer’s. Sonia wanted me to check that Rose was okay and that her condition hadn’t clouded her ability to transition into spirit.

This was not a typical reading. The amount of valuable insight Rose was able to convey was incredible. A deceased loved one is not usually this chatty – much less, capable of communicating with me! This is an incredibly significant reading I feel compelled to share with you all.

A bit of background on how I work…

Like Anna, I am a professional intuitive and work by accessing your soul’s information in the Akashic Records and then asking for further clarity from your Primary Spirit Guide. In an Akashic Reading I access the record of your soul – past, present and future. An Akashic Reading describes who you truly are on a soul level. This insight helps you to understand why you act the way you do and why you attract certain situations and people to you. This is incredibly empowering and gives you a road map for your future that you can return to over and over, in the years that follow.

Rose came through loud and clear for me as soon as I entered spirit. Rather than contacting Sonia’s Spirit Guides I was able to speak directly to her. I was wary of taxing Rose especially as she hasn’t been in spirit very long. Usually the recently deceased find it difficult to communicate, like trying to talk to someone on a radically different wavelength (imagine trying to have an existential discussion with a preschooler)! They need to practice in order to be heard by us lowly Earthlings!

Rose’s daughter has given me permission to share this reading with you all. Sonia wrote to me:

“This is a beautiful testimony to Mum, a very spiritual & loving woman. I am so happy she is at peace. She was a gentle, loving, compassionate soul & loved by people of all walks of life”.

I am so grateful for her generosity! Rose passed on such precious wisdom that can offer consolation and insight to many – not just about dying and what a soul experiences but an insight into one woman’s experience of Alzheimer’s also. Rose was able to convey so much information and to offer us a glimpse into her world. Wow!

This is not to say that Rose’s experiences are what we will all experience. In my article ‘What Happens When We Die’ I explain that our expectations and beliefs create our reality in life as in death. Everyone is unique so everyone’s journey into Spirit is also unique. Rose’s personal journey in Alzheimer’s and death is a testimony of the possibilities, the potential of what we – as souls – are capable of!

In my intuitive readings, I use a technique called automatic writing that allows me to receive exact words from Spirit. I put my hands on the keyboard and write what I am told. Often this is 2-3 words at a time that gradually makes up sentences. This means my rational mind can’t jump in and filter what I am receiving. It remains unadulterated – clear messages directly from Spirit.

Rose was unable to give me words but conveyed a sense of what she wanted me to say in pictures. She was creating word pictures for me to see and try to describe in words. As Rose put it:

“Words are so filthy! They do not correspond to the feelings! They do not come close to expressing what I feel. So I use other methods. Dreams. Pictures. Signs and symbols in your imagination. These are more powerful and profound than any words. I cannot be bothered laboring over the exact word. I shall give you a picture. A red rose, long stem, with all the thorns tenderly removed. This is worth far more than words. This image says all I need to say to you.”

Writing was excruciating: trying to translate her feelings into words that did her justice. Often the feeling was literally indescribable! In time Rose will be more efficient and practiced at translating energy into words and will be able to be more clear in her communication. She’s doing extremely well considering how little time she has spent in Spirit!

I hope these extracts give an impression of what Rose experienced. As you can tell by the first thing she said, she was incredibly open and straight to the point! She immediately launched into a vivid description of how it felt to leave her body:

“Do not be so afraid of the afterlife and what has befallen me. I am doing well. As soon as I left my body I regained my consciousness! It was as if I had woken from a long and terrible dream! I was awake! Fully awake! I looked at you by my bedside and honestly could not see why you would be so sad. Why would you weep? I am here! I could see you but you could not see me! I lingered there, hovering above you for the longest time, hoping you would feel me there. But I needed to continue my journey and so I needed to leave the room and you, my beloved.

Ah yes! It is so incredibly difficult to describe! It was like shedding an old tattered coat, a heavy burdensome coat, for the last time! I felt instantly lighter, brighter and floated upwards like a balloon! Without my coat I could see and feel my true essence unhindered. I lost all separation with the clouds and the oceans, all separation with you…! It was an amazing sensation. The coat had been like a straightjacket or a cage. I was free! I felt so free!

I went to a place without light. It was not dark! It was not a frightening or threatening place. It was more a place of rest and recovery. It was like the feeling you have as you rise out of sleep. A spaciousness, a clarity that is without a reason or a form. No thoughts passed through my mind. I was filled with a sense of (indescribable!) bliss (beyond love or calm or peacefulness).”

Rose, like many of us, had a difficult and challenging life. She was a deeply spiritual woman with wisdom way ahead of her time, not to mention the awful deterioration into Alzheimer’s. As part of her transition she experienced her life review that shed such an amazing new perspective on her life experiences:

“When I entered spirit I lost all interest in the ‘Why for’ of my life. I saw all that transpired as a series of images flashing by. It all seemed so interesting! I had chosen such a dramatic, action packed life! It was not judged. It was neither good nor bad, sad and angry nor happy. It just was. I dropped all judgment of my life. I could no longer see any of it, even the most horrendous chapters of my life, as anything but a gift and a blessing. How lucky was I? How blessed to have received this incredible opportunity! I saw all that occurred without the faintest care. I saw how my actions and thoughts had affected others and I felt remorse. But again I was not judged or judging. It was as it was. I felt all the ripples of my life casting out further and further, well beyond my understanding. I felt blessed. I understood. It lightened me and made me feel the infinite opportunities open to us all.”

Rose couldn’t resist going to her own funeral. Her daughter confirmed that it had been planned as a celebration of this exuberant, beautiful soul. What Rose saw, though, was incredible. Her transition into death had radically changed appearances forever!

“This drifted away and allowed me to return to see you all at my celebration – that is what it was! – of my life. But by now I had dropped all sense of my body. I drifted (formless). My mind was so crystal clear I could see you all as thoughts passing through – with all that was going on within you. These were like shapes or bubbles that would pop and reform, pop and reform. To me you had all lost your solidity. Looking down over the congregation you all looked transparent. Your bodies were a clear shimmering mirage around your souls.”

Rose spoke at length about her current state. She had become omniscient:

“Remember I do not feel separate from you. I did not feel any ‘rip’ as I left you. If anything I was connected more fully than ever before. This is the curious experience of leaving the body behind. It is as if this body held us apart not just physically but in all ways. Now that I am no longer restrained (restricted/constricted) within my body – I can feel EVERYTHING!”

Rose was now able to connect with the thoughts and feelings of her loved ones, not just what they say out loud! Amazing! But she said it far better than I could:

“Now I am moved beyond this even. I still feel you as thought bubbles popping and reforming. I feel so close to you…

Why are you in such a state of grief? Can you not feel my presence still – just as it was when I was suffering in my descent (the past decade)? I am still here! I have not left! If anything I am even more present with you than I ever could before. In a sense I am in you, with you, a part of you. I have no boundaries, no barriers! Nothing!

This disconnection you feel from me is not real. I am just as present and aware as I ever was. I am not a phone call away – I am a thought away! I am closer than I ever was in life to you… Perhaps I will not respond as quickly or easily as I once did! But I hear and I respond in kind.”

Rose returned to this point again and again to reinforce her experience:

“I am here! I am only a thought away! I have not gone away! I am with you. I love you so very much. I love you beyond words. I will be here for you always. I will be waiting for you to come to me. I am learning all I can and shifting (changing vibration, moving up through the planes) as I do.”

Rose is attempting to describe the indescribable: the Spirit Planes. Just as there are many dimensions on Earth that Rose’s consciousness resonated with at any given time there are also many dimensions within the spiritual worlds where her soul goes based on the quality of her heart and her state of consciousness when she died.

My understanding is that in order to enter into the higher planes Rose must first reach a higher state of consciousness by raising the vibration of her soul consciousness through a process of purification. By raising her vibrational frequency she will naturally resonate with higher vibrating planes within the spiritual realm. As she raises her vibration she will rise into higher and higher planes of existence until she is surrounded by clear light. At the highest level she will be surrounded by a powerful energy of pure love and intelligence – the underlying fabric of everything in the universe. At this level, Rose will understand that she no longer needs a form, that she is a multidimensional being of love and light. She will feel oneness with All That Is, yet still have her free will and the ability to choose to reincarnate.

Since dying, Rose had lost all desire to understand why she had needed to have the harrowing experience of Alzheimer’s. Rose said:

“I do not need to understand why. I do not want to demand an explanation or answers. It was as it was. I made the best of it, as I always do. It was a blessing and a curse all at once. Be at peace with this.”

While suffering from Alzheimer’s Rose described her life. Despite being unable to even communicate in the last two years Rose reassured her daughter that:

“There is nothing left unsaid. I might not have been able to speak (at the end) but you know all my thoughts. You know how much I love you and want only the best for you. Those years were hard. I felt locked into a body that could no longer operate the way I needed it to. It was a frightening thing to go through.”

While incapacitated with Alzheimer’s, Rose discovered her ability to leave her body and travel in her spirit form in astral travel. Astral travel is the ability to journey at will while still being attached by a golden thread to your physical body. Rose described:

“But I had a life. I had years of preparation for leaving my body. I was in training. I learned to leave my broken body at will and traverse the universe whenever I needed a break! I was an adept. You saw this. You knew I was far away! There is always a purpose in madness! I became familiar with life without a body long before now.”

This meant Rose actually hadn’t missed the milestone moments in her loved one’s lives.

Rose described her newfound awareness of her role in the lives of her loved ones. To her daughter Sonia it has felt like Rose wasn’t as present with her since her death. Sonia couldn’t feel her around. The dreams she used to receive from Rose had stopped when she died. But Rose explained why this has occurred:

“But know that now I have left my body my role has shifted. But I am also learning not to interfere or become too involved. Your thoughts are your own and I will do you a great disservice if I interfere with you…

I am being led. I am learning. I am resolving not to be such a strong and powerful influence in your life. This is for your highest good. I look back and I realise I was perhaps too strong on you. I need to step back and allow you to exercise your own will and be a spectator rather than a player. This is for your highest good, my dearest. I could not continue to interfere from the sidelines!”

Rose appears to have taken on a role in her daughter’s life that is very similar to a Spirit Guide. She describes herself needing to back off a bit: very reminiscent of how a Spirit Guide would not wish to interfere with a person’s free will and personal autonomy.

This is the difference between an impartial Spirit Guide and a well-meaning mother who actively engages in the lives of her children – sometimes offering too much of their opinion!

Spirit Guides tend to be pretty tight lipped when asked for too much information that’s not necessarily in your highest good to know! They tend to prefer to encourage you to do what you feel is best and will be positive and affirming whatever choice you choose to make. This seems to be what Rose wants for her daughter:

“That is not to say I will not ALWAYS be there. But now I see the value in cheering you on rather than trying to run the race for you. Do you see? In my eagerness to be a part of your life I was doing too much. I see it now. I did not at the time. I only want the very best for you. This is the very best I can offer you.”

Even more than that, Rose now seems confident she can co-create and help manifest her daughter’s desires. Wow! This is usually a role reserved for high vibration Spirit Guides or Angels…And just remember Rose had only been in spirit for 3 weeks! What a truly remarkable woman!

She said:

“Of course that is not to say you can’t call on me when you need me. I feel you. I hear your pleas and I work my hardest (damndest) to help you create them in your world (into form). I can help you. I will do all I can to help you. My time is not limited and so I can shift through time and space to create the shifts needed. Ask. Be clear with what you want and ask.”

When her daughter asked for guidance on her life path and purpose, Rose had these profound words of love and encouragement to say:

“Your life is your own, beloved. I champion everything you do. I love you more every day I am here. I see you and all that you do. Truly. I see you, more so than I ever did before. I understand you, what drives you and what motivates you. Do you see this in yourself? Do you see how beautiful you are?

I am honoured! With every breath you take I feel honoured. You are a blessing! Your life and the world you create is a blessing. See all that you do, not in its minute detail but as an enormous many coloured tapestry. Weft and weave on my dearest. You are creating a masterpiece!

We all think we can’t make a difference in the world without making grand statements. But this isn’t actually the truth. Speaking to someone at a bus stop, holding your daughter’s hand and showing her how much you love her, being present and strong when your husband is upset. These moments have many and lasting effects that you can’t possibly imagine. The ripples of these actions go on and on. It is unfathomable! Understand that you are making a difference. With every breath and every action you are making a difference. And the more people you interact with the more of a difference you can make, the more ripples spread out. This is all that is required. There is no need for grand statements. Spread your loving kindness far and wide…

Do not be in such a hurry. You have so much left to live. Cherish the moments you have and do not squander your time projecting so far off into the future. Stop and breathe. Look at your hands and return to where you are, what you are doing. I know it is easy to drift off (I’ve been there for the last decade!) but try to draw yourself back to where you are. One moment. This moment. Now this moment. That’s all that matters.

Love your daughter as I love you. My love is an extension of what you give to her (through you I can give her the physical love she desires- but also the lineage of mothers past all the way down the generations). I love you all so very much! I am always with you. I am with you. I love you.”

When asked whether her daughter could assist her in any way, Rose replied:

“I need nothing of you. I need no assistance. My journey upwards is not affected by anything you can do. It is my own. I feel incredible! I am incredible! I wish only that you could see me now! I wish only to touch your hand one last time and tell you I love you over and again. You know this. How I love you!”

Rose’s final words were incredibly heartfelt and her love for her daughter was so passionately expressed:

“I am with you. I am always with you. I am holding your hand and giving it a reassuring squeeze when you need it. Everything is going to be all right. I am here. Ah beloved. Time will pass and ages will grow and I will always be with you (lifetime after lifetime).

(She has her hand on her heart) You are in my heart always. You are a part of me. We cannot be apart.”

I feel so blessed to have met Rose and share this incredible experience with her daughter. Knowing Rose is not gone forever but is actually in an expanded state of consciousness, is well and experiencing such a wondrous existence in the afterlife, can’t possibly fill the grief Sonia feels. An incredible woman like Rose must have left an equally large hole in her life. I have added myself to the many, many people who will remember Rose with affection.